Getting through

"You don't get over it, you just get through it. You don't get by it, because you can't get around it. It doesn't 'get better'; it just gets different. 

Everyday... Grief puts on a new face...."

 -Wendy Feireisen

It doesn't get any more real than that. I have always said "It is just different." I have heard it described as "softer" and I think that applies too at times, but it is always there. always.

There are some things that are comforting and heartwarming through all of this. I think I can speak for a lot of mommy's who have lost a baby who fear that people will forget their children after they are gone when they are all you can think about.

Can you even imagine the comfort I found when I received this text from one of my very best friends the other day?

 My heart swelled about a million times that my babies and I mean so much to her that she took time out on Father's Day to visit them.  I cannot even count how many times she has listened to me talk through these horrid, awful feelings I have felt over the last almost 2 years. Sometimes in the middle of the night in the first few months. 

Thank you, Dani, for visiting my sweet precious girls...it really does mean the world to me.